I came home early today with plans to pick up James and take
him to the park or go for a run on the greenway. But it rained. And instead James stood at the door and stared
through the glass that separated him from the freedom of the outdoors.
We had become prisoners in our own home.
So we sang (meaning I sang because James was
too troubled to partake in such childish non-sense) Rain Rain Go Away and It’s
Raining It’s Pouring and If All the
Raindrops were Lemon Drops and Gumdrops and the only two lines I know from Purple Rain mixed in with some random
song I made up because I was tired and couldn’t think of any more songs about
rain.
But my “Rainy Day Concert” didn’t hold a candle to the real
thing. James was too spellbound by the
falling rain and despite my very best attempts to convince James that playing
in the rain was a bad idea in the most logical adult way possible, I was
unsuccessful. So, instead of defending my
rationale all afternoon to an almost 2-year-old with a stubborn streak as irritatingly long as my own, I called a truce and compromised with a snack on the front
porch.
The rain let up around 7 just
long enough for all of us to explore the mud-puddles, slick grass and the
sensation of rain on our faces. James
squealed and splashed and chased Max and we all soon became so lost in the excitement of the rain that our original plan for a sunny afternoon seemed pretty darn boring.
I’m kind of looking forward to
thunderstorms rolling in tomorrow afternoon…
For me, the month of April did not exist this year. Only a vague memory of a terrible sinus
infection the week after the Pollen
Blizzard in March, something about running around in circles at full speed for
a good period of time, and losing my keys for half an hour before realizing I
had forgotten to turn the car off. Then
l can recall being really tired from working and studying and chasing an
energetic toddler around, falling asleep and waking up on May 1st…RANDOM
– I wonder if the Easter Bunny even came?
I love Easter – always have.The bright colors it brings to give the grays of winter that final boot,
the thrilling feeling of searching for buried treasure during Easter egg hunts,
the egg dying, the message of the Easter story, the chocolate bunnies, Peeps,
flowers, jelly beans – I think I’ve made my point.
This year though, Easter was
comically brutal.
We started our Easter festivities early
and celebrated the return of warm sunny afternoons by sharpening our egg
finding skills with impromptu egg hunts.At first, James didn’t get it…but then we turned Easter egg hunting into
a game of “pick-up” and when we started singing the “clean-up song” everything
clicked.James would run from egg to egg
picking up as many as he could carry, losing only a few, before dumping them
into his bucket…SCORE—James was going to dominate
the egg hunts this year.
Getcha Game Face On!!
That’s not how it happened…
I think the pressure got to him...
He figured why search for eggs with candy and toys inside when I've got a perfectly good kitchen play set here?
James
picked up TWO eggs.
I'm pretty sure I made Eddie throw this one back onto the ground so that I could get a picture of James picking up at least one egg...so James decided to make sure I got more of his butt in the picture than of him and the egg.
And that was after a lot
of coaxing, plenty of pointing and, honestly, a bit of begging.
"Mom, don't worry all these other kids are 'cleaning up' the eggs. They don't need our help."
P-Lease lady, I'm too cool for this.
The Easter Bunny sighting went as expected…
Okay...that's NOT cool.
Then James gracefully fell off of a
tricycle and scraped his face…
You should have seen the trike...
I found myself completely exhausted Saturday night after
staying up a little too late dying eggs with James and “MoMa” (Eddie’s mom)
while still nursing myself back to health after the sinus infection from hell.I had plans to clean the house and throw up
some Easter decorations and magically transform this place into a Easter
wonderland fit for a photo shoot in a Pottery Barn Children’s Magazine…but I
accidently closed my eyes instead…No decorations, no eggs, and on Easter
morning my house resembled an animal barn more than Pottery Barn.The only
decorations (with the exception of the blocks and puzzle pieces scattered on
the floor) was the balloon we bought on Valentine’s Day and an Easter Lilly
Eddie had picked up at the grocery store. Thankfully, I had managed to convince
Eddie to help me with the Easter basket the night before and we made an attempt
to Easter-fy the morning with some bunny-shaped pancakes and an unrehearsed performance
of “Here Comes Peter Cottontail”.
Eddie did a great job with Easter breakfast!
After searching high and low for the perfect Easter outfit
for James, I was still left empty handed Easter morning and ended up hodge-podge-ing
together his only pair of khakis without of stain, a button-up shirt and a size
6-12 month dress coat (James is in a size 18-24 month but I made it work like
all good moms do on Easter).
If you haven’t noticed, I stress about silly
things, like Will James sit quietly in church long enough to make it to the children’s
sermon?NOPE? He likes music so, instead
he cheered after every song the choir sang and every hymn the organist played...I’m
pretty sure he was also sending up a special request to God when he yelled “MOMMY”
during a prayer.And boy did I need it.If I had only known then how our Easter
afternoon would go I may have also called out to God because James chose to
scream instead of sleep through his naptime – and his naptime happened to be
during Easter lunch with Eddie’s family.If you’ve ever tried to eat a nice meal with a persistent 18 month old upstairs
wailing, you know that trying to pretend like you don’t hear chaos ensuing from
above is like trying to pretend like you don’t hear that annoying person behind
you that talks through an entire movie.
Yep, we let our kid have M&Ms for breakfast...
The rest of the day was a blur.We played outside, we saw family, and we battled
through the emotional roller coaster with James.But, my vision of Easter 2012 with all of its
pastels and Easter eggs and new Sunday suits and flowers was no more.
We settled into pajamas early that night and looked out of
the window to find the moon like we always do – Finally, perfect contentment in
the simplest of simple everyday things.It
reminded me once again that so many of the goals and expectations of motherhood
are more for me than for my kid.Still,
I stress about getting things just right – making things extra-special.There’s this idea of perfection moms strive
for with every holiday, every vacation, every afternoon outing, every family
photograph.Even as mothers-to-be,
complaints about not getting a good profile or face shot during an ultrasound
or grumblings about an unplanned c-section roll off our tongues so fast that we
forget the true miracle of a healthy child – perfection in the simplest of
simple things.
Not all memories and traditions originate from grandiosity
and perfection, in fact, most don’t.Easter 2012 certainly did not. It’s the plain and simple that sustains
us.They come by the basket-full and they
are just as special.